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22 Apr 14 at 1 pm

Dear religious pregnant patients,

Please do not use pseudoreligion to cover up your ignorance. If you have gestational diabetes so uncontrolled that you need insulin, please take it. Don’t just default your follow up and decide not to record your blood sugar levels. If the doctor tells you that they need to induce labour as your diabetes is too out of control, please listen instead of refusing to see the doctor until youre about to pop out a baby. Perhaps your 10min of googling gestational diabetes may replace my 5 years of medical school, the 20 years of experience of specialists, and hey, maybe God will protect you and your baby. But if he dies in your womb because of your ignorance, its not just god’s will, its also you. Yes whatever god wills,will happen, but god also gave us brains to think and come up with modern medicine. He gave us reasoning and ideas to come up with new scientific findings. Religion does not want to burden their followers, so please don’t give me that shit. And to not vaccinate your newborn child for tuberculosis in an area where tuberculosis in endemic is just effing stupid. We didn’t just come up with this shit, scientists spend years developing vaccines backed with trials so that your kids get to live healthy and public health data show that it works.

That is all.

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20 Mar 14 at 6 pm

tirairgid:

Beautiful South America
I want nothing more than to be backpacking in these places. Insyallah,after my internship is over, hopefully with you, for 6 months.

(via loveyourchaos)

Maybe because I’m turning 25 this year, or because i’m now constantly surrounded by pregnant women and babies (I started my obstetrics&gynae rotation)or maybe because some good friends are getting married and they seem so lovely together I now have this feeling of wanting to get married and having babies.

Eeep!

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31 Jan 14 at 4 pm

And then he said the most devastating thing, ’ I forgot how it feels like to kiss you. Of course I remember enjoying it, but what it actually feels like.’

My heart became heavy.

He then said, ’ We’re just gonna have to change that.’

I was all smiles again. Fingers crossed that I can get a holiday soon!

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23 Jan 14 at 7 pm

Hey!

So things that have happened in the past 3 months…
1. Started my internship with the hardest rotation (internal medicine).
2. Broke down and cried publicly in the ward after working 18hours daily for a consecutive 2 weeks with only 3 to 4hours of sleep a day from stress/lack of sleep.
3. Wanted to quit.
4. Didn’t quit. Learnt to compartmentalise work, prioritise and do things quick.
5. Started doing night calls, sometimes taking care of 3 wards as the only on call houseman on certain nights. Started working anywhere between 12-20 hours a day :(
6. Inserted a whole bunch of wires/tubes into people’s hearts/internal jugular veins/femoral veins/lungs successfully. Didn’t kill anyone yet.
7. Started being told by patients that I was a good doctor, started being told by doctors I had potential.
8. Made into houseman captain (I don’t get a ship/plane, not that kind of cool captain. just other interns to manage and make sure no one messes up)
9. Started seeing someone (!!!) Things are looking good between us, I quite fancy him.
10. I have no time for photography…unless you’re interested in the going-ons and behind-the-scenes hospital stuff, I don’t have much to take of. At least I’m still drawing :)

And this is my face after 20 hours on call. I’m still in scrubs cause they’re comfy!

Hey!

So things that have happened in the past 3 months…
1. Started my internship with the hardest rotation (internal medicine).
2. Broke down and cried publicly in the ward after working 18hours daily for a consecutive 2 weeks with only 3 to 4hours of sleep a day from stress/lack of sleep.
3. Wanted to quit.
4. Didn’t quit. Learnt to compartmentalise work, prioritise and do things quick.
5. Started doing night calls, sometimes taking care of 3 wards as the only on call houseman on certain nights. Started working anywhere between 12-20 hours a day :(
6. Inserted a whole bunch of wires/tubes into people’s hearts/internal jugular veins/femoral veins/lungs successfully. Didn’t kill anyone yet.
7. Started being told by patients that I was a good doctor, started being told by doctors I had potential.
8. Made into houseman captain (I don’t get a ship/plane, not that kind of cool captain. just other interns to manage and make sure no one messes up)
9. Started seeing someone (!!!) Things are looking good between us, I quite fancy him.
10. I have no time for photography…unless you’re interested in the going-ons and behind-the-scenes hospital stuff, I don’t have much to take of. At least I’m still drawing :)

And this is my face after 20 hours on call. I’m still in scrubs cause they’re comfy!
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22 Dec 13 at 12 am

Spot the anis?

Proof that I’m still alive :) I hope you guys are well xx

Spot the anis?

Proof that I’m still alive :) I hope you guys are well xx
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15 Nov 13 at 12 am

So…I graduated :-) here’s a cheesy phone snap.

So…I graduated :-)  here’s a cheesy phone snap.
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12 Nov 13 at 7 pm

I am looking forward to the days I can pick up my backpack and travel again.

But for now, I’m trying my very best at being a junior doctor. 

I am looking forward to the days I can pick up my backpack and travel again.
But for now, I’m trying my very best at being a junior doctor. 

After 2 weeks straight of working 18 hours per day, I’m finally “off tag” and no longer need to shadow any doctors! YAAAYYY! 

However, the thought of being on call alone, taking care of 3 wards and the responsibilities that come with it is extremely daunting. One of my patients passed away on my 5th day of work (not my fault.) but there was a whole team of specialists and MOs there coincidentally to supervise as I resuscitated. If I’m alone with the nurses at night, I call the shots before the big guns arrive…

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04 Oct 13 at 2 pm

And here is what I’ve learnt from the past 5 months;

Family does not necessarily mean blood relations.

Blood relations do not necessarily mean family.

Painfully true and obvious as it may be, it’s a contrast to what I’ve been raised to believe, that nothing is more important than family. 

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20 Sep 13 at 12 am

Upper Yubeng Village, Deqin, Yunnan. 

My home for a week, with no street lamps, no phone connection, minimum hot water and lots of donkey and pig poo on the roads (the village is inaccessible by  vehicles, ride em’ donkeys if you don’t wanna hike 20km up the mountain) it really was like paradise.

My family for 2 weeks; Miss Linda Lee who acted as my surrogate mum taking care of me while I had food poisoning, nagging at me for my own benefit and other general adult things I lack, translator during communication barriers, confidant during girl talk/hugging sessions and of course, navigator for I have no sense of direction;

Mr. Gregorio Avanzi who acted as my surrogate brother whom would tell me the ways of the world (such as the reasons I should eat proscuitto or have sex, “or better yet, have proscuitto WHILE having sex”, a topic argued upon on many hikes), teacher as he taught me how to roll my first joint (and many more after that) and smoke up, dancing partner on evening dances with old ladies, food/adventure expedition member (We had possibly the best yak momos in the world!) where we’d have crazy intense talks about books, religion or architecture while exploring tibetan temples, finding best spots to watch the sun rise and star gazing.

I could not have asked for better company and better scenery. I am truly blessed.

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09 Sep 13 at 7 pm

Shangri-la, Yunnan, China.

(Crouching tiger) Hidden dragon.

Temple restoration.

Shangri-la, Yunnan, China.
(Crouching tiger) Hidden dragon.
Temple restoration.
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03 Sep 13 at 8 pm

Tiger Leaping Gorge, Yunnan, China. 4th July 2013.

The 6-7 hour hike ended with a night’s sleep in a small hostel on the mountain side before continuing another 6 hours to the very end the next day. That night we sat on the balcony, drinking, eating and having good conversations with strangers and friends with the beautiful mountains as a backdrop. They passed around spliffs and some of us played drinking games until one by one everyone surrendered to exhaustion and sleep. 

Large boulders fell from the mountains onto the low path overnight due to heavy rain and we got word that they closed the park due to danger. My friends started to panic and tried other ways of getting us out of there without having to hike the rest of the trail but to no avail. The path was small and slippery, and it would have been a long tumble down the slopes. Cold and soaked to the bone, we made it out of there in one piece. On the way out of the gorge, there were rocks big enough to take out buses lying by the side of the road (locals have already pushed it out of the way by then) and some parts of the road were smashed to pieces.

That photo of me would have been my last one if the rocks fell on us while we were hiking the trail. No regrets though, I met some of the most interesting people and saw beautiful views through this gorge. I joked with my mum later on that if I had to die, I’d rather go when I’m climbing a mountain or doing something I love. She was not amused. Needless to say, she has trouble with letting me go on another solo backpacking trip.

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03 Sep 13 at 2 pm

Meili Snow Mountain, Deqin, Yunnan, China. 13th July 2013.

I love traveling because through it, I am free. 

Meili Snow Mountain, Deqin, Yunnan, China. 13th July 2013.
I love traveling because through it, I am free. 
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27 Aug 13 at 1 am

Erhai Lake, Dali, China. 30th June 2013.

I cycled around the lake for 3 or 4 hours. It was massive! I was taken away by how beautiful it was, made lovelier with Cashgan Mountain as a backdrop. 

Erhai Lake, Dali, China. 30th June 2013.
I cycled around the lake for 3 or 4 hours. It was massive! I was taken away by how beautiful it was, made lovelier with Cashgan Mountain as a backdrop.